Stressed out

so today's the first paper for mid-term exam
as I step into class this morning
I felt the tension
the silent-competitive atmosphere 

as I went to my place and got my things out ready for the first paper to start
with my name starting with the letter V
I sat at the third last seat in class
looking around at my classmates
they are reading, memorizing, doing practices
and I silently thought to myself:
how in the world am I to top this class?
they are all geniuses
and the way they talk to you
knife dive straight into your heart
they are just too smart
till a sense where they only know how to associate with books
not humans
they will do anything
anything
to achieve good grades

and as I sat at my place in class today
I felt the pressure
the tension I've tried to surepress for so long
rising up
I told myself
no letting go, not now
and so I was quite for the whole day
I don't know what my friends think of me
but I'm really scared
there's just no way
no way in the world
no matter how hard I study
there's just no way I would be able to top the class
so why do I still care?
why can't I let go?
why do I have to keep on strangling myself like this?

Mid-term exam starts tomorrow!!!
I'm so dead ><

All the best people~~~
especially the ones sitting or preparing for exams
Jiayou~!!!
God bless :)
-Veeanna

Reality hits

Reality hits
That I live in Asia
In a country
Where not everyone has the best thinking

Reality hits
That I study in a school
Where there is no rights to the students
Everything goes according to what the teachers say
No debating
No arguing

Reality hits
That we served
As a volunteer
Without rewards without repayment
And this is how we get treated
Not even a chance to speak our minds

I'm tired
Tired of all these unfairness
I will try my best
To become a person who has the influence
The power
To change what's not right

For now
My dear
I'm standing with you
No matter what decision you choose to make
I will be backing you up
Even if it means letting go of what I held on tightly for 4 years

Dear almighty Lord
Help us through this
Bless her with knowledge
Lead and guide her
Let her know the right decision to make
Lord we trust this in Your hands
Lord keep our faith strong
Help us through this
Please Lord.
In Jesus name we pray
Amen.

-Veeanna

Great weekend :)

Hi peeps!! :D

Today is Tuesday,
and I missed the bus home,
again ._.
Thank you Ally, for fetching me :)

So on the Saturday that just passed,
13/4/2013
I went to bestie's house.
Her house is huge~~~
Love the atmosphere in her house x)

So that day we went swimming together again
hehe...
Just love swimming <3

Did you realize there's no end to the pool? :D

After that she went for rehearsal while I stayed home and baked :D

Chocolate chip cookies!!
(believe me it taste better than it looks :x)

This is the first time that I actually like what I baked
Usually it's just people telling me it's nice but I never agree
but this time,
Oh my gosh...I can't stop eating >.<
and my bro likes it so much he doesn't allow anyone else to eat ._.
Friends from school tried and everyone loves it!!
Arhh~~ Happiness ^^
Great recipe this is,
Thank you Jo for giving me the recipe :)

Than on Sunday, 14/4/2013
Fellowship evangelise event.
Thank you Lord for bringing a total of 15 new friends
Glory to God ^^

The event was a success
Even though I didn't join in the organizing of it
(mainly cause there's no need for me to :D)
Still,
Praise and Glory to God for the success :)

It's 2 more weeks till mid-year exam
nontheless,
I'm scared /.\
Hope the hard work pays off ><
Lord please lead me through.

All the best in life!

-Veeanna

Dear almighty Lord,

I pray for my younger brother.

Lord he's been diagnose with HFMD
the doctor says he'll need to be emitted into a hospital if it worsen

Lord please look after him

heal him with your holy hands

take away his burden of suffer

and replace it with joy and peace.

Lord please keep our faith strong

to entirely trust in you

that you have your ways and plans

We may not understand

but keep our faith strong that your doing is always on time

Lord I trust my younger brother in your hands

In Jesus's name I pray
Amen.

-Veeanna

朋友

还记得以往的假期
我们都会相约去看电影
逛街
吃好吃的东西
还记得吗？

明白
补习时间排得好紧
没时间一起看戏
吃午餐
没时间留给彼此
这是你们对我说的

可是
你们还是去看了电影
逛街
吃好吃的东西
只是
身边的人不一样了

不明白
那坚固的友情呢？
以往聊不完的话题呢？
注重学业就无法留时间给彼此？
那3年建立起的友情
是这么脆弱的吗？

累了
走一步算一步吧

感谢神
身边还有她的陪伴
没完没了谈天说地
每晚11点没事也上面子书
纯粹是要看你有没有在线
十之八九你是在的
除了周末 :3

每晚你都会叫我早点睡
可是你自己却是个夜猫子 xD
半夜3，4点还是不肯休息
每晚熬夜读书
成绩好得让人羡慕 ><

谢谢你昨晚陪我熬夜
让我在寂静的夜晚写作文
脸上还是挂着笑容
和你谈着无关痛痒的话题

谢谢你的分享
让我接触了许多好美的音乐
动听的歌声

谢谢你愿意让我听你唱歌
虽然你不承认
但说实话
你的歌声真的很好听 :)

谢谢你一次又一次的叮咛
要我早点睡
别伤害健康

谢谢你不停地提醒
无论处境再怎么黑暗
相信神一定会带领
恒切地祷告
耐心等候上帝的时间

谢谢你
愿意陪在我身边 <3 

-Veeanna

失望却不能说出口
When will I ever learn to not expect from people?
I thought I meant something to them...